|15 Questions with the author of
|Arrested for posting his mind
on his website, Matt Kent recently published a collection of
his work called "Gasstationthoughts", which can be compared to
the likes of Go Ask Alice meets Catcher in the Rye, with a
little anarchy thrown in! We asked the controversial author's
alter-ego Wheeler Antabanez some questions
1.What is your motivation for
reading was my first addiction. writing
was just a natural progression. my daily journal on
gasstationthougths.com is my motivation for waking up each morning.
words are my favorite game. words are my drug of choice.
words have become my specialty.
2. How close to Matt
Kent is your co-author Wheeler Antabanez?
matt and i live
in the same body but thatšs where the similarities end. matt
kent is really just a weak little pussy. išm the one with the
real balls and išm sick of that asshole getting all the credit for
my hard work. i gained control of this body during the writing
of gasstationthoughts and i still havenšt loosened my grip. it
pisses me off that mattšs name is on the cover and it pisses me off
that your questions are directed at him. i am going to kill
3. Has your family come to terms with your
my family hasnšt evolved to the point where they
can think for themselves. they live behind a shield of lies
that protects them from the reality of who išve become. my
parents are still mourning the death of their sweet, innocent little
4. Many voices of a generation find themselves in
such distaste with society that they end their lives (Kurt Cobain,
Ian Curtis, Wendy O'Williams). What keeps you going?
cobain taught me everything i know about art. he lived and
died true to his words. one day i will be dead, but for now
what keeps me going is the birds chirping in the trees, skimpy
summer tank tops and the moon shining through my bedroom window.
life is a beautiful and terrifying experience that is too
valuable to waste on other peoplešs expectations. i always
keep my death close to remind me that išm alive.
seem to understand the message that the Columbine shooters, Dylan
Klebold and Eric Harris, made better than the parents and society
do. In what way could you describe what's happening to the world so
that they might understand it better?
eric and dylan were
two high school seniors with their whole lives ahead of them.
instead of graduating into a life of hopeless monotony they
destroyed their world. all my life i have struggled with my
loathing for humanity. when i heard about columbine i felt
relieved that there were finally people who actually
6. In reading your book gasstationthoughts, I
tend to think that this is what Holden Caufield would have been like
if Salinger would have let himself go. In that book, the only
thing Holden Caufield wanted to be was a Catcher in the Rye, what do
you see Wheeler Antabanez becoming?
could never be that catcher in the rye. i am too far gone to
suffer like holden did. every time i read that book i cry
because holden reminds me so much of matt just before he gave up
7. What type of music do you listen to?
listen to lots of music. no need to start naming
8. I read that you are working on another book,
what is it about?
my next book will be the final chapter
of my life.
9. You write poetry that is very powerful and
thought provoking. Have you done readings of your work and if so,
what was the reaction from the conservatives?
like to do readings because i canšt stand meeting my fans. i
did a book signing when gasstationthoughts was first published and
it was kind of cool, but i prefer to remain in seclusion.
10. I know you have a great distaste for
conventional religion and in particular, Christianity and god. Do
you believe in anything after death or that we all just cease to
i grew up believing in god. i took it
seriously because my parents told me that it was real. as a
kid religion was more than just a chosen belief it was a terrifying
reality. i faced my "sins" everyday and suffered because i
could never meet the standards placed on me by the church. it
wasnšt until later in my adolescence that i realized the rules were
purposely created to contradict human nature in order to keep
followers locked into constant feelings of guilt and shame.
once i realized that religion was just another form of sick,
manipulative control i never went back.
11. Has life
gotten any better since the publication of your book? Are you
finally a "star."
i have become somewhat of an
underground celebrity, but my aspirations are much broader.
judging your worth by the amount of people who know you is
worthless. for me fame just happens to be an important part of
12. Have you considered suing the Caldwell and
West Caldwell police for infringing on your freedom of speech and
using the legal system for revenge in any
traditional way is just a waste of time. no amount of money
could soothe the fury that i feel for the stupidity of the community
that surrounds me. my revenge will be measured in success and
my success will be defined in the minds of the individuals who will
have the opportunity to experience my art.
13. Was there
anything that your publishers felt was too excessive in your
original manuscript that had to be removed before
out of all the publishing houses that i
queried for the publication of gasstationthoughts barricade books
was the only one with the balls to even consider it. lyle
stuart, the president of barricade books, is a notorious defender of
the first amendment, but even he waited for me to beat the
"terroristic threats" charge in court before agreeing to publish my
book. gasstationthoughts was published as it originally
appeared on my web site and is in stores now uncensored for your
|14. There is a
lot of hidden meaning and harsh social commentary in your
book, is there one or two particular things that your readers
tend to miss altogether?
i donšt know what people
get out of my writing because i rarely discuss it with anyone.
i write these words, build these web sites and live this
life the way i do to fill my own voids. išm not worried
about opinions or criticism because i know exactly what išm
trying to accomplish and i know precisely how to achieve my
goals. my writing has taught me a lot about who i am and
has helped me see the world from a fresh
15. Where do you see yourself in 10
Matt Kent's book is a disturbing, honest,
and sometimes brutal look into the life of a young adult. It never
holds back, it says it like it is, and in many ways will shock
people with its candor and honesty. Kent is a truly talented writer
who is destine for greatness if he lives that long. It is nice to
see that Barricade Books had the trust and belief in his writing,
and allowed him to present his work in its original format without
editing or censoring. I hope that all of the lost "sheep" out there
who saw Kent's book only as a form of terrorism can put down their
Bibles, remove the blindfolds from their eyes, and use the brain
they have. The words the author uses are not unique, they are the
same words used and thought by almost every young adult out there.
Only with the honesty of Kent's book can we truly get to understand
the world a little better. This is the book J.D. Salinger would have
wrote if he had the guts to let Holden Caufield be alive.